The thing I am frustrated about.

We all need money to live. We are working for it. Are there any other reasons? Yes. We are expecting to develop our abilities. And we actually should do that for it. 

However, How about me? how about what I am doing? I am doing what I don't like to. Because of money. Because I need money.

Why? Because I should buy something to eat. I need something to eat to live. Then I can study. I can study to be who I desire to be. Okay, so for now, am I the one I desire to be? No. I am not the one I want to be. What do I have to do and what do I want to be?

Taip. That should be the question to me for the first time. So the thing goes like this below.

What do i want to be? Well. I want to be more simple. I am a creator. Well. at least I want to be. but for now I am not who I want to be. I have ideas sometimes. Some of it were brilliant but some of it are just more than poor. but that's totally fine. because one day I will hit the spot. But for that. I should keep hit it. sequentially. Yes. I should generate, create values, my ideas to prove my creations.

For that. I study how to generate. the way to generate. that is programming, nowadays that is simple and easy. but I am not learning it. and not studying it. WTF. I should study. but going back to start, I need money, I should work.  How about working in that industry which I want to be in? Yes. that's the purpose-intentional answer for my status for now.

So. The thing I should do is getting in a company which I can do what I can make my ability more first, then I must study and make it. I should make it make it make it. need to write resume. first. then let's struggle. till now. I didn't do, didn't give my time to do. so It's time to do for my future. exactly now. you're never gonna go if you don't go now. Be clever. Let's use dumbasses. Let's take my freedom back.